1- to get my kids to stop putting ranch dressing on their tacos
2- to play more and worry less
3- to hold space for big feelings, both mind and not mine
4- to spend more time deep in the mountains, bathed in the green glow of dappled sunlight through the trees in awe of the jagged edges in the distance
5- to growl with our youngest more, both learning and teaching how to move the anger out of our bodies, in dance, in movement, in screaming… anything to let her be the perfect little gremlin I always wished to be
6- to bask in the warmth of friendship
7- to let those friends, new and old, know who I am and the experiences it took to craft this badass hotness
8- to hold sierra more
9- to relish every tender intimate moment, breathless and naked and soft
10- to teach our kids the phrase “some people will shit on anything just for the excuse to wipe their ass”
11- to catch them using that phrase properly
12- to gift Emma the courage to try to read, even if she gets it almost right
13- to swim in natural water more than chemical cesspools
14- to finally write my book, honoring every version of me that’s come before with the desire to climb that mountain
15- to let my sweet, gentle, crazy haired little me out more, to show her a world that she’s safe to be herself in
16- to write more poetry, not just when we have class
17- to teach cove that no is a complete sentence and it’s not his fault society isn’t built to teach him that lesson
18- to write a happy poem
19- to come up with the other 481…